Angry at God

I am angry with God.

This is a statement that only a few weeks ago I was feeling. These last several years of life have not been easy for me. From a divorce to the pandemic, to reconstructing my life, to building a business, for God to decide I needed to leave Colorado and start all over…. AGAIN.

I got VERY angry with Him. Even rage filled.

I hated feeling that way! I wanted to be able to keep my devotion and belief that He has it all. But I won’t lie. I lost it there for a bit.

I felt like I had been so obedient to God. He called me to do something and even if I was terrified, I did my best to do it. So WHY did He make me start all over for the 4th time!? 

In some ways He has answered that question. In other ways I am still figuring that out with Him.

But my purpose of writing this blog is to tell you that it is ok for you to be angry with God. He can handle it.

I understand that may not be what you have been told. Many of us believers have been taught that having anything other than a connected relationship with God is not acceptable.

I would love to meet a person who maintains a completely committed relationship with God all the time. The reality is that your relationship with God will ebb and flow.

Just like with any close relationship. And just like you experience emotions with the people you love, you will experience those with God.

Something I find people forget is God is the one who created us with emotions. He literally decided the purpose for each emotion and why they are important to the human experience.

Do you think He didn’t know that we would experience those emotions towards Him?

Or do you think He thought we would only experience the good emotions towards Him?

It says in Psalm 139:4, “Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely.” I know this might come off as a no brainer comment, but this scripture tells us that God knows all.

This includes the emotions you are feeling towards Him. The beauty of all of this is He doesn’t condemn us for those emotions. However, He instead instructs us to be careful with those emotions and not allow them to lead us to sin.

In Ephesians 4:26-27 it says, “But don’t let the passion of your emotions lead you to sin! Don’t let anger control you or be fuel for revenge, not even for a day.

Don’t give the slanderous accuser, the Devil, an opportunity to manipulate you!”

What God is telling us in both of these scriptures is He knows everything about us. He knows every moment what emotions you are experiencing.

Those emotions are valid and allowed to be felt. Where we need to be very careful is allowing the emotions to give power to Satan.

So today, tomorrow, and weeks from now remember to allow yourself to feel. Even if it is towards God. Just also remember to go to Him with those emotions that way He can help you work everything out.

If you are in a place where you need help to figure out your emotions or relationship with God fill out my contact card to schedule your free 15 minute consultation!